Am I Depressed?

Dude, things are really bad right now. I haven't eaten, or gotten out of my room in two days. Let me tell you what happened.

Remember the last time I wrote? I was saying that Mario came to visit and told me that my girlfirend Jenny was going out another dude. His name is Fred. You know Fred, right? The tall guy with the ugly 1970's flat top and a red sports car? Anyway, Mario told me that and I didn;t want to believe it, but he swore it was true, and I was not sure. I don't know, maybe because Jenny is the hottest girlfriend I've ever had, or maybe because everyone always talked crap about how impossible it was for me to be with her, but I was always afreaid that something might happen. My parents thought she was too old for me, and from the very start my best friend told me she was too hot for me. I don't know; I think she is.

So, for a while, I didn't know what to do or what to think. I had to talk to her, I knew, but I didn't know what to tell her. I was just afraid, I know, so don't rub it in. The thing is that I had to talk to her about it and give her the chance to explain what happened.

I went to her house and asked her. She admitted that she had been to Malwart and that Fred was there, but that all she was doing was buying groceries, including the ingredients to make my favorite dessert, raspberry frosted cheesecake (and she showed me the cheesecake to prove it).

Man! The cheesecake was 'delish'. I thought we were cool, but then that #$&@ Fred showed up (why was the door open anyway?) and I discovered the truth. Fred had left his credit card in Jenny's purse. How could she have Fred's credit card if there was nothing between them? I was like dude! What's up with this? I yelled, cried, cursed and stuff like that. I was so mad, I don't even remember all the stuff I told her.

I wanted to tell Jenny that if we could not be honest with each other, we'd be better off split up, but she didn't say anything, so I just got up and left.

That was the last time I saw her. I have been in my room ever since and have barely eaten. It's so unfair that you get a girlfriend and you think she's all that, but she's going behind your back doing stuff with other men.

I dont; know what top do now. What gets me mad is that while I'm just sitting here all depressed, she is probably partying out somewhere.

Maybe I should go out and party as well, but I don't feel like seeing a bunch of idiots laughing at their own stupid jokes right now. So I just stayed home watching re-runs of The Adventures of Icky and Dax, but each episode is more stupid than the last. I don't know how Javier can like this garbage.

It's a wonderful time!

Oh, the season is great!

I have been busy, lately, and I think I'm in love! Don't tell anyone, though, or people may make fun of me, but I have a girlfriend!

No it's not Mario's sister Aileen. That was a nightmare. (If you don't know what happened then you can see it starting HERE) This time it is different.

I don't know why, but Jennifer, the girl who lives across the street from us (you know, the one who has a tattoo on her lower back) came one day out of the blue and tried to tell me something. At first I didn't get it, but Mario made me see that she liked me.

I didn't know what to do, because she is like 7 years older than me, but the truth is I like her a lot. She's cool, you know... and oh, well, you know me. What happened next was like wow! I was coming back from school and the bus was full and she was there. Then, out of the blue, she kissed me! I was like "whoa, dude!"

I carried her stuff back to her place and I was like "Yeah Baby!", but there, she told me that she could not get involved with someone like me, but that was only because of my age, because she really liked me. I was mad, because she kissed me and then said we could not be together, you know that sucks! I left the place, but then she called me again and we made out. I was kinda' confused, you know? With all these "no we can't" but "yes we can" I felt like it was the last presidential election or something. The thing is that now we are together and everyone is happy.

Well. Not everyone. I'm happy and Jennifer is happy, but you should have seen Dad's and Mabel's faces when I told them. "She's nearly my age!" Mabel said. Like it is normal for a woman so young to have a kid my age. Why is it okay for her to be so many years younger than dad but it is not okay for Jennifer to be just a few years older than me? Well, the thing is they don't approve, but this is my first serious girlfriend and I don't want to mess it up.

I went out with Jennifer for Christmas, and I can't believe it, but she wore a Santa suit. The weirdest thing is that she made it look gooooooooooood! I had fun, but I kinda' missed dad and Mabel. We always have Christmas dinner together, so I promised her that I would be home for new year, and he told me that Jennifer could come.

At first I was cool because I thought Mabel was accepting Jennifer, but when we came home we noticed that she was stressed out and after dinner, she kinda freaked out.

Then we talked about our goals for 2010, but I'm too tired to talk about that right now. Maybe I will write tomorrow.

See you!